Snowing Indoors

Did you know that it can snow indoors! I found out yesterday that it can, if your 2 yr old wishes it. My mother-in-law watched Nathan for us while Rhett and I went to I.F. for a doctor appointment.( Hailey and Keigan were at school) We came home to see Nathan asleep by the hall closet with his cute little bum in the air. And also to see that my mother-in-law helped straiten the the kids room and the kitchen for us. What dose this have to do with it snowing in our house you ask? We'll after she had been gone for a while, Nathan spotted my package that I had received a few days ago sitting on the floor by the kitchen table (instead of on top, where I had left it) Nathan couldn't pass up the chance to play with the packing peanuts and of course they flew EVERYWHERE! All over the front room making a trail threw the kitchen to the top of the stairs going down to my room. Instead of freaking out (too much) I decided for us to make snow angels and have a little fun. When all the fun was done the kids, even Nathan, helped pick up most of it. I'll be bringing out the vacuum in a min to get the rest of it.
Thanks to Nana for moving my box onto the floor we were able to have a little Christmas fun indoors. I'll just have to be sure she doesn't see the mess we made after she cleaned. ;)

Christmas Bows

ha ha I just realized that one bow you can barely tell that it has a snowflake as the center piece and that the gree snowman one looks lopsided. Oh well.

This one is my favorite. I like it so much that I'm making another one, and may give it to someone. hmmm

The newest batch of bows

This doesn't include the two Christmas ones that I have just made. Hailey already lost the 1st one I made at by accident. It fell out of her hair at recess, then the next day some girl had the nerve to wear it, and Hailey is too shy to ask for it back. That makes me so mad, I work hard on that bow. We'll my 2nd one turned out really cute too. I'm also going to make a cupcake bow and a princess castle bow for Hailey and one of my nieces who's name we have for Christmas.

Thought I should update you on David and his wife Yennie

The day that David, Yennie, and Owen where sealed in the temple. Also included in picture are Yennie's parents visiting from China.

Owen at a month old

ha ha like father like son, or is it like son like father?

Owen at 3 months.
P.S. He is a honeymoon baby. hee hee

Great! Just Great! :(

    You would think life would start getting better after Rhett's transplant. Oh it is, but for him, not me. I have been trying to get on Disability do to how I know I couldn't handle working with how easily I get stressed, anxious and jittery. I was denied, WOW what a surprize, NOT! Thats the government for ya, they will deny you for any little mistake. I'm working with a law firm that helps people get on disability and they asked if I had another Dr. who could fill out a certain for me because the 1st one didn't show me needing help. This time I thought "Oh I'll go see my Mental Health Counselor that I use to see a long time ago" Well I'm glad I did. He filled out the form BEAUTIFULLY! And while talking to him about my problems I found out some interesting "not so good" things about me. Besides Bipolar, Anxiety, and Depression ( which are all separate disorders ) I also have ADHD ( not the hyper kind, but have problems focusing on anything for too long) and I keep forgetting the name of it but I have developed the disorder where your afraid to go out of the house. I'm not quite   at that point yet, but close. Looking back I notice all the signs that I was heading this way. Couldn't get myself to go to some of the big family gatherings, The chaos of Deneece's 6 new adopted kids while camping ( instead of eating dinner with everyone I sat in our van and cried. I cant get myself to church most Sundays, and if the grocery store is crowded  I get very nervous want out of there. I send Rhett to the store more often so I dont have to go. Also while seeing the counselor I had a panic attack. Take That Social Security!! I call that information proving that I cant handle working. I also had another one seeing my other Dr. this week. She had me take this True or False test that I took about 4 months ago and it showed that my depression and anxiety have shot up way high since last time, meaning my medication is doing nadda for me. We are in the process of weaning me off of Paxil and onto another. She also is doing a blood test checking for Vitamin B12 deficentsy. Most Bipolar people have this problem and need to "inject" (cringe) themselves once a week with meds.

    Thats not all folks! I have Sleep Apnea!  I need to get on this disability so I can get Medicaid so I can do the full test to prove how bad I am, and pay for the machine that I will have to sleep with. The short little test that I have done shows that my oxygen goes down to 80%. Anything under 90% is bad. And I also(according to Rhett)  sound like I'm having trouble breathing at night. My dad has sleep apnea and his test showed that he quits breathing about 29 times in the night. Why Mmmmeeeeeeee!

                                                   Grant Earl & Fayette Earl
                                                         

   To top all this off my mom just had eye surgery, its more like plastic surgery because the pulled her under eye skin up and into an incision they made by the corner of her eye. The Dr. told her that she is to young to have had this problem. The skin under that eye lost its elasticity and is ( well now its a was ) sagging and her eyelashes were turning inward and scratching her retina. That only happens to women, men only sag.  Also my Grandpa is VERY depressed and is wanting to die and if he dosent get moving around and eatting more he will. He misses my Grandma SO bad. This is his 1st Christmas without her since the war. The song I'll Be Home for Christmas has a whole different meaning to him this year. In a way I wish he could have his wish and be with his wife in heaven. Imagen 67yrs with someone always by your side then they are gone. And my Grandpa is getting quite old. He will be 91 in January. 

   So thats my depressing tale. I know how depressing something like this is to read, but it's like a therapy for me and its good to get it out. I don't know what I would do without my mom to talk to. She understands what I'm going threw better than anybody. I love her so much that I'm crossing all my fingers, toes, and even nose hairs if I have too, that when I have my next (probably last) child, I hope its a girl cuz I want to name her after my mom. My mom REALLY deserves that honor. Right now my heart is leaning toward Carol-Ann Rose Hayes. Ha ha ha I have the name even before I'm pregnant or know the sex of the baby. Oh and by the way, DONT TELL HER!! Just in case I have a boy, or the name doesn't seem to fit. But for now I'm working on getting myself healthy so that I can bring a healthy baby into the world, with a mother who wont fall apart at every little thing.

I guess I better go and make some Christmas hair bows before Christmas get here, and I'm also making a few fun ones for one of my nieces who's name Nathan has for Christmas. Post pics of them later.

1 year since Transplant

      It's been 1 whole year since Rhett's transplant. Thanks to his sister Shantelle, Rhett was only on dialysis for 1yr. She was very loving and willing to work fast threw the process to see if she was a match to be his donor. She was better then we could have hoped for. She needed 6 out of 12 antigens to be a match, she was 9.
       It wasn't to bad for me in the waiting room during surgery. The lord had blessed me with the feeling that everything was going to be alright, and I had Rhett's parents and Shantell's husband LaVell with me. Like we were guessing it took Shantelle a little longer to come out of anesthesia. She is such a small person (and short hee hee) They both looked really pale afterwards, but after a day or two the color came back slowly. Rhett was in ICU for 4 days.We expected 2, but his kidney was pushing out too much fluid. He needed to keep a little in so the kidney wouldn't dehydrate, also his toxin level was still a little off. Shantelle was able to leave after 3 days. Boy was she a marathon walker! They want you up and walking laps around the nurses station to get your circulation going. Shantelle was really working it so that she would be ready to leave ASAP. When not walking they had to wear these cuffs on there legs that helped massage them and keep the circulation going.

As you can see from the 1st picture Rhett started off with 4 bags of IV fluid. They really wanted to get

that fluid pushing threw that kidney at first. Good thing for that catheter. The nurse was emptying it every hour the first two days. Then they started slowing down on how much fluid they gave him. As you can see on the 2nd picture they still left his dialysis catheter in his chest just incase the kidney didn't work and he needed to get back on dialysis. 

    I couldn't stay over night at in the ICU so I slept at the University Guest House with his parents. I was happy when they finally moved him out of there and was able to stay with him. His parents left that same day. I knew exactly when Rhett was starting to feel more like his old shelf, he asked for his laptop. LOL! And when the wire gave out on the laptop he had me go down to the van and bring up is deck top computer, yes you heard me right, his desk top. ha ha  How funny I must have looked carrying that thing in, but it made Rhett feel better and from being so bored.

   We also did some sleeping. I also took Rhett out a couple of times a day to walk around. We had to be careful where we went because Rhett's immune system was way down with his anti-rejection meds on the very high dose. I had to sanitize my hands every time I came in or out of the room, by every patients door was a hand sanatizer. The Dr. slowly reduced the meds and still is to this day. Rhett has blood tests done every 2 weeks so the Dr. can see if any adjustments need to be made. Poor Rhett kept getting told that he might be out the next day for a couple of days in a row. He was anxious to get out. And get the catheter (from below) out. It was getting painful, and annoying. We were told that most hospital stays were 5 to 7 days. Rhett ended up being their 10 days. His kidney was working a little to well and pushing too much fluid out. And his toxin level was up a little in the morning but fine later that evening. Boy was he glad when he got the OK to leave and got both of those catheters out. He was thinking he would be nervous if a girl came to take the one out from below, but he was so desperate to get that thing out he didn't care. He just wanted it out.

   During this time our kids stayed with a few different friends of mine. Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! It helped make us less worried about them and able to focus on Rhett and Shantelle. When Rhett's parents when back to I.F. Rhett's mom stayed at our place with the kids and got our house cleaned up and ready for Rhett. When Rhett got out of the hospital we stayed in Salt Lake at the University Guest House for another week and a half so that we would be close to the hospital for his 2 times a week blood test and check-ups. 

   My wonderful parents came up with our kids for a one night stay so that we could see our kids that we missed so much.

Hailey's 1st grade class made Get Well cards for Rhett that I had to display in the room. They were so cute. (A month after transplant Rhett took cookies to the kids to say thank you and explained a little about his transplant)

   Oh yeah! We also spent Thanksgiving at the hospital. Not much fun, but we had a special Thanksgiving the week before surgery and Rhett's dad gave both Rhett and Shantelle a blessing. What a wonderful experience. Everyone could feel the spirit in that room. We came home in time for Christmas. Most of our Christmas shopping was done in Salt Lake. Rhett was suppose to try and stay out of public, but that was near impossible for me to get him to do. He was so antsy.   

   I'm very Thankful to my Heavenly Father that we found out about Rhett's kidney failure when we did. (18% function, dialysis starts at 15%) I'm thankful for the strength that he gave me, and the wonderful ward members who helped and prayed for us, and family and friends that where there for us. That Rhett only suffered a micro stroke. That Shantelle was very willing to be his donor, and that surgery went well for both of them. This was sure a learning time and trial for us but with the lords help we made it threw the worst of it. Thank You to everyone who helped us and/or prayed for us, we felt your love and support.

P.S. Since it took me so long to write this it's now the day after the 1 year mark. lol. November 20th will always be an important day in my book.

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