Snowing Indoors

Did you know that it can snow indoors! I found out yesterday that it can, if your 2 yr old wishes it. My mother-in-law watched Nathan for us while Rhett and I went to I.F. for a doctor appointment.( Hailey and Keigan were at school) We came home to see Nathan asleep by the hall closet with his cute little bum in the air. And also to see that my mother-in-law helped straiten the the kids room and the kitchen for us. What dose this have to do with it snowing in our house you ask? We'll after she had been gone for a while, Nathan spotted my package that I had received a few days ago sitting on the floor by the kitchen table (instead of on top, where I had left it) Nathan couldn't pass up the chance to play with the packing peanuts and of course they flew EVERYWHERE! All over the front room making a trail threw the kitchen to the top of the stairs going down to my room. Instead of freaking out (too much) I decided for us to make snow angels and have a little fun. When all the fun was done the kids, even Nathan, helped pick up most of it. I'll be bringing out the vacuum in a min to get the rest of it.
Thanks to Nana for moving my box onto the floor we were able to have a little Christmas fun indoors. I'll just have to be sure she doesn't see the mess we made after she cleaned. ;)

Christmas Bows

ha ha I just realized that one bow you can barely tell that it has a snowflake as the center piece and that the gree snowman one looks lopsided. Oh well.

This one is my favorite. I like it so much that I'm making another one, and may give it to someone. hmmm

The newest batch of bows

This doesn't include the two Christmas ones that I have just made. Hailey already lost the 1st one I made at by accident. It fell out of her hair at recess, then the next day some girl had the nerve to wear it, and Hailey is too shy to ask for it back. That makes me so mad, I work hard on that bow. We'll my 2nd one turned out really cute too. I'm also going to make a cupcake bow and a princess castle bow for Hailey and one of my nieces who's name we have for Christmas.

Thought I should update you on David and his wife Yennie

The day that David, Yennie, and Owen where sealed in the temple. Also included in picture are Yennie's parents visiting from China.

Owen at a month old

ha ha like father like son, or is it like son like father?

Owen at 3 months.
P.S. He is a honeymoon baby. hee hee

Great! Just Great! :(

    You would think life would start getting better after Rhett's transplant. Oh it is, but for him, not me. I have been trying to get on Disability do to how I know I couldn't handle working with how easily I get stressed, anxious and jittery. I was denied, WOW what a surprize, NOT! Thats the government for ya, they will deny you for any little mistake. I'm working with a law firm that helps people get on disability and they asked if I had another Dr. who could fill out a certain for me because the 1st one didn't show me needing help. This time I thought "Oh I'll go see my Mental Health Counselor that I use to see a long time ago" Well I'm glad I did. He filled out the form BEAUTIFULLY! And while talking to him about my problems I found out some interesting "not so good" things about me. Besides Bipolar, Anxiety, and Depression ( which are all separate disorders ) I also have ADHD ( not the hyper kind, but have problems focusing on anything for too long) and I keep forgetting the name of it but I have developed the disorder where your afraid to go out of the house. I'm not quite   at that point yet, but close. Looking back I notice all the signs that I was heading this way. Couldn't get myself to go to some of the big family gatherings, The chaos of Deneece's 6 new adopted kids while camping ( instead of eating dinner with everyone I sat in our van and cried. I cant get myself to church most Sundays, and if the grocery store is crowded  I get very nervous want out of there. I send Rhett to the store more often so I dont have to go. Also while seeing the counselor I had a panic attack. Take That Social Security!! I call that information proving that I cant handle working. I also had another one seeing my other Dr. this week. She had me take this True or False test that I took about 4 months ago and it showed that my depression and anxiety have shot up way high since last time, meaning my medication is doing nadda for me. We are in the process of weaning me off of Paxil and onto another. She also is doing a blood test checking for Vitamin B12 deficentsy. Most Bipolar people have this problem and need to "inject" (cringe) themselves once a week with meds.

    Thats not all folks! I have Sleep Apnea!  I need to get on this disability so I can get Medicaid so I can do the full test to prove how bad I am, and pay for the machine that I will have to sleep with. The short little test that I have done shows that my oxygen goes down to 80%. Anything under 90% is bad. And I also(according to Rhett)  sound like I'm having trouble breathing at night. My dad has sleep apnea and his test showed that he quits breathing about 29 times in the night. Why Mmmmeeeeeeee!

                                                   Grant Earl & Fayette Earl
                                                         

   To top all this off my mom just had eye surgery, its more like plastic surgery because the pulled her under eye skin up and into an incision they made by the corner of her eye. The Dr. told her that she is to young to have had this problem. The skin under that eye lost its elasticity and is ( well now its a was ) sagging and her eyelashes were turning inward and scratching her retina. That only happens to women, men only sag.  Also my Grandpa is VERY depressed and is wanting to die and if he dosent get moving around and eatting more he will. He misses my Grandma SO bad. This is his 1st Christmas without her since the war. The song I'll Be Home for Christmas has a whole different meaning to him this year. In a way I wish he could have his wish and be with his wife in heaven. Imagen 67yrs with someone always by your side then they are gone. And my Grandpa is getting quite old. He will be 91 in January. 

   So thats my depressing tale. I know how depressing something like this is to read, but it's like a therapy for me and its good to get it out. I don't know what I would do without my mom to talk to. She understands what I'm going threw better than anybody. I love her so much that I'm crossing all my fingers, toes, and even nose hairs if I have too, that when I have my next (probably last) child, I hope its a girl cuz I want to name her after my mom. My mom REALLY deserves that honor. Right now my heart is leaning toward Carol-Ann Rose Hayes. Ha ha ha I have the name even before I'm pregnant or know the sex of the baby. Oh and by the way, DONT TELL HER!! Just in case I have a boy, or the name doesn't seem to fit. But for now I'm working on getting myself healthy so that I can bring a healthy baby into the world, with a mother who wont fall apart at every little thing.

I guess I better go and make some Christmas hair bows before Christmas get here, and I'm also making a few fun ones for one of my nieces who's name Nathan has for Christmas. Post pics of them later.